June 30, 2012

Lord, Take care of them!

Ten days.

Only Ten days to serve you, to love you, to look at you.

I love you Mom and Don.

I have learned so much these 10 days...enough to fill 10 years.

I hate to leave you.

I know that I have given you all I could, and more.

I have never served anyone like I have served you two these past ten days.  Why not?  Not even my own Mr. Santos or my own dear children have I served with such love and patience. 

I am ashamed to say that Death knocking on the door was my motivator. 
But in the end, I was changed.  I received a thousand times more than I gave.

"And this I pray, that your love may abound yet more and more in knowledge and [in] all judgment; That ye may approve things that are excellent; that ye may be sincere..."   Phil 1:9-11 

I think of Jesus, how he loved his disciples "to the end" and I have just a glimpse of that now.


I hate to leave you.

I want to keep loving you.  I love loving you.

I'm going home tomorrow to love my children, and Mr. Santos better.

I'll be praying for you.  I'll be calling to check on you.  I'll be sending, through the mail, what I can to contribute to your care.  I'll be aching to see you again.

 "...for I know whom I have believed, and am persuaded that he is able to keep that which I have committed unto him against that day." 2 Tim 1:12 

June 27, 2012

Still in California

Mom is doing better.  She is alive...no I mean ALIVE. Her mind is racing, her hands tapping; she keeps getting out of bed like she really wants to get going. Unfortunately, her body and her brain are holding her back.

But, it is exciting.  We keep drilling her on little things (numbers, names, colors, etc.)

The children are visiting Yosemite National Park with Mr. Santos.  The sunshine is my own therapy. I haven't enjoyed this many hot sunny days in a row in YEARS.  What a blessing.

We don't know what the future holds for Mom.  Today's Bible verse was Proverbs 27:1

"Boast not thyself of tomorrow, for thou knowest not what a day may bring forth."

There you have it.

While I am typing I am humming "Leaning, Leaning, Leaning on the everlasting arms of Jesus."

Thank you for all your prayers. Keep 'em coming.  "I thank my God upon every rememberance of you."

June 25, 2012

Thoughts while waiting. (Updated in comments section)

Mom is in surgery.  Right before going in she seemed to be more alert and peaceful than ever.  We serve the God of ALL comfort.  The tumors, the hospital, the surgery, even the possible death of my mother has not been as difficult as getting along with others, (the others involved in this whole thing that is) 

It must be me. 

It's so easy to say "she's controlling" or "he's selfish."

I get offended, or overwhelmed, or angry.  Romans 2:1 says "Therefore you are inexcusable, O man, whoever you are who judge, for in whatever you judge another you condemn yourself; for you who judge practice the same things."

It is hard to acknowledge "yuckiness" in myself.  Especially, when I would rather point my finger  Amazing Grace that saved a wretch like me.  Thank God He is not only the author of my faith, but the finisher too.

Love is never more so than when it would be easier to hate.

I read this verse today, or at least  part of it.  "When Christ, who is our life, shall appear..." (Col 3:4)

who is our life? Really?

Is Christ my life? Seeing clearly that it is my own desires which makes up my life.

"Set your affection on things above and not on things on the earth."
Col 3:2

It is a good thing to give thanks unto the LORD, and to sing praises unto thy name, O most High:
To shew forth thy lovingkindness in the morning, and thy faithfulness every night,
Psalm 92:1-2

It's amazing how the slightest thing can separate you from the love of another person; a difference in opinion, a bad attitude, a word UNfitly spoken.  In an instant their love (at times, MY love) is cut off.

Nothing will ever separate me from the love of God.

The first thing God's love is: Long-suffering.  The second thing, Kind.

My aunts and uncles (and even strangers) keep pointing out the similarities between my mom and my oldest daughter. 
 Oh, how I wish I could sit with Mom and ask her "How do I raise this amazing girl?"

Why didn't I ask her before all of this?

This kid is a happy joy to me.  Oblivious to all the hard hearts around him, he just smiles and loves and shares...Thank you Noah, Thank you Lord

Naomi, growing up so fast. Such a tender little heart, easily broken and overwhelmed.

Trusting you Lord to watch over her.

June 20, 2012

Please pray

Please pray for my mother and our family. 
She has been rushed into emergency brain surgery. 
I am a thousand miles away.  
Thank you.

June 19, 2012

June Daybook

Dreaming of silence, warmth, and calm, 

(click on the picture above for more daybook fun)


Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Outside our window...

White roses climbing up, up, up.

I am thankful...

that Mr. Santos is feeling better.  His back is healing up, slowly, but surely.

I am wearing...

A denim skirt, cranberry red tee shirt and black flats.

From the kitchen..

Making rice pudding from last nights leftover rice. This is a favorite treat of Mr. Santos and the children.
I don't much care for it, but they love it and no rice is wasted.

I am learning...

To let my kids fail. Their failure helps them to learn.
I have been afraid of letting them fail because I thought it meant that I was failing.

Another revelation of the controlling pride in me.  God is so good and patient with me.

Would you believe that allowing them to fail has brought more peace to The Times?

A quote to share...

“Faith's most severe tests come not when we see nothing, but when we see a stunning array of evidence that seems to prove our faith vain.”
― Elisabeth Elliot, These Strange Ashes

“Of one thing I am perfectly sure: God's story never ends with 'ashes.”
― Elisabeth Elliot, These Strange Ashes

I am going to start reading this book.

I am creating...

Nothing. But I enjoy the creations of my children: drawings of horses, forts, poems and funny songs.

I am going...

to California next week.

I am remembering...

My mother.

I am reading...

Bible Bee verses and II Timothy. I read last week a novel call "The Last Sin Eater" by Francine Rivers.
It was a pretty good book.

I am praying...

That God would show himself GREAT and MIGHTY.

I want to see His "Bigness"

Around the house...

The children are playing The Josties CD really loud and singing along.  They are waiting...

The table is set for Tea.  Green tea with small slices of lemon cake.
I am headed for that table right after this post. Would you like to join us? There is plenty, especially for you.

Some of my favorite things...

Hearing my children memorize and recite scripture.

Fat and curious babies.

The ocean on a sunny day.

Reconciliation. When two angry people become friends again.
Blessed are the peacemakers for they shall see God.


A few plans for the month:

I leave next week to visit my mother.  She is suffering from an aggressive bout of dementia.  Will she know me when I see her?  Will this end in death or years of confusion?  Will she be healed?

Here is a picture thought to share...

My mom and me in 2010. I love you, Mom.

June 10, 2012

I was glad when they said unto me...

Let us go into the house of the Lord.

We are studying the book of John in church. So good, so timely,
And the third day there was a marriage in Cana of Galilee; and the mother of Jesus was there:
And both Jesus was called, and his disciples, to the marriage.
And when they wanted wine, the mother of Jesus saith unto him, They have no wine.
Jesus saith unto her, Woman, what have I to do with thee? mine hour is not yet come.
His mother saith unto the servants, Whatsoever he saith unto you, do it.
And there were set there six waterpots of stone, after the manner of the purifying of the Jews, containing two or three firkins apiece.
Jesus saith unto them, Fill the waterpots with water. And they filled them up to the brim.
And he saith unto them, Draw out now, and bear unto the governor of the feast. And they bare it.
When the ruler of the feast had tasted the water that was made wine, and knew not whence it was: (but the servants which drew the water knew;) the governor of the feast called the bridegroom,
And saith unto him, Every man at the beginning doth set forth good wine; and when men have well drunk, then that which is worse: but thou hast kept the good wine until now. John 2:1-10

They wanted WINE, not water. Yet, Jesus told them to fill the water pots with water.  What is Jesus asking me to do in answer to my needs? Will I obey even if it isn't what I asked for?

I want justice. He says, "forgive."

I want financial blessings. He says, "give."

I want healing. Yet I, we, they are not healed. I wait.

Then he said, "Draw out now and bear unto the governor of the feast."   Did they feel foolish taking water to the governor when they should be serving him wine? Did it turn into wine when they drew it out or right before he drank it?  I don't know. But I do know that the servants obeyed.  They did not ask questions.

This beginning of miracles did Jesus in Cana of Galilee, and manifested forth his glory; and his disciples believed on him. John 2:11

Am I a servant of Christ? Do I take his orders and do them? or do I give the orders and wait on God to serve me?

June 09, 2012

Tea Time

I am having...

Green Tea with raw honey.

Would you like some? Are you hungry? May I get you a bowl of soup?
Or perhaps you would just like a piece of chocolate?

I am feeling...

Relaxed. After a busy morning full of chores, I made a big pot of Chicken Tortilla soup for lunch. I then spent the rest of the afternoon reading and skimming through my favorite magazines.  The children and Mr. Santos watched I love Lucy, took naps, and read from our library stash.
On my mind...

Mr. Santos. He hurt his back recently and is unable to work.

A quote to share...

“If God has shown us bad times ahead, it's enough for me that He knows about them. That's why He sometimes shows us things, you know - to tell us that this too is in His hands.”
― Corrie Ten Boom,

 “The tree on the mountain takes whatever the weather brings. If it has any choice at all, it is in putting down roots as deeply as possible."
― Corrie Ten Boom

Please join my friend Ruth and others here for Tea Time

June 04, 2012

Studying God's Word

It's that time of the year again, drilling, drilling, drilling the children in Bible memory for the Bible Bee.

The first passage on the list was 2 Timothy 3:16-17.

All scripture is given by inspiration of God and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness: That the man of God may be perfect, thoroughly furnished unto all good works.

We memorize first by repeating it many times and then writing it out.  But what is most helpful for me is asking and answering lots of questions about the passage.

Here are some of the questions I might ask myself to remember the passage. The answers are mostly found within the verse itself.

1.)  How much scripture is given by inspiration?  All

2.)  How is it given? by inspiration

3.)  Who's inspiration? God's

4.)  All scripture is ________ and __________? Given and profitable

5.)  What does it mean that scripture is profitable? beneficial, gainful, useful

6.)  What is the scripture profitable for? doctrine, reproof, correction, instruction

7.)  What does the scripture instruct in? righteousness

8.)  Why is the scripture given? That the man of God may be perfect

9.)  How is the man of God to be? perfect

10.)  What does perfect mean? thoroughly furnished unto all good works

11.)  What does throughly furnished mean? having everything needed

12.)  What are we throughly furnished for? all good works

13.)  Which good works? all

Another way that we memorize scripture is to SING it.  This is good because sometimes the tune gets "stuck" in our head and we end up humming it all day long.  We also play games.  One fun game is to write the verses on the chalkboard and read the verse out loud.  Erase one word and then read the verse all the way through including the missing word.  Erase another word and read again. Soon, you will be reciting the whole verse with all the words erased.

Do you memorize scripture?  How do you do it?  How often?

And Jesus answered him, saying, It is written, That man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word of God. Luke 4:4


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